whirlwind of thought

whirlwind of thought, originally uploaded by shakycam.

I feel like this girl....thoughts of work, life in general seem to invade my head, just as I am attempting to sit and start to do some hardcore academic work.
I have only a few hours to be productive today and I keep thinking about....
am I good teacher?
am I good at this whole academic thing?
What do I really want?
Why I am doing so much SHIT for GSA
Why are all my friends leaving?

I guess spring is making me feel like new things should be happening. As I see the grass trying to grow outside my house...I feel like somehow I am also trying to grow...
But I still feel confused....
Where should I grow?